For no absolute reason, my chest hurts, my head hurts, and I feel like ripping everything in sight apart. But I can’t and it hurts so much. Why?! WHY?!

Lately, I’ve just been letting my fear get to me, and oh boy is it winning … Why? Why did all of a sudden did you have to come out all at once? I hate you, go away, you’re ruining me

But everything & everyone just hurts me with their bitterness. And it’s infectious. I just want to know who are the people who are willing to do the same for me like I did for them. I can’t even trust words anymore, so I’ll leave it up to action. Let’s see who cares enough about me. For once, I want to be the comforted instead of always trying to be the strong comforting, which I know doesn’t always work. But I try right? Ugh, my head is throbbing …